Eloise Midgen

( Boogie Down )

My mum is home, so is my dad, it is almost normal. Plus my hand is somewhat better, please disregard the sloppy handwriting but they told me to write to get it working again. I hope to draw again soon. I also get to buy my new wand soon.

Ward Private

List of people to receive drawing once my hand gets even better.
- All the Puffs
- Terry Boot
- Andrew Kirke
- Su Li (she saved my life she gets extra)
- Seamus Finnigan
- Lavender Brown
- Patils
- Georgette
- Demelza Robins
- Imogen Oddpick
- Geoffrey Hooper
- Kevin Entwhistle
- Neville Longbottom
- Hermione, Ron, Harry

- Anthony (how could I for get him?)

I hope I didn't forget anyone

I am awake and not sure what has happened. All I know is it hurts and can't move. My writing hand is a right mess.

Warded to Hannah

Hannah-Banana are you okay? I just haven't seen you and I worry. I assume you are safe, because you always are. Just wanted to check in. I just worry and I'm confused to why I haven't seen you today, always there you know. I guess I just noticed the change. Hope you are okay.

I just wanted to say it was sad that all the prefects got their badges taken today. And it is down right terrifying the IS is basically in charge. And I still remember who you are so I'll still listen.

Warded Private

I just cannot seem to find the energy to care. I feel so distant and distracted. My mother is gone, can she come back? Will she come back? My dad is in prison. I just don't know what to do. Maude is still not speaking to me, but at least Hannah could. I know I should be more open with my friends, but I feel like I don't want to trouble them with my silly worries. They have so much going on. And they seem so distracted. I see a lot and they do seem to be holding a secret but if they don't want to tell me that is their right. I kept things from them after all. It is probably something I have no hope of helping them with. But I feel silly just sitting by doing nothing. Dark Arts class has reached a point where I can not physically participate, but fear not. I don't wish to feel that pain again. Yet at this rate it is unavoidable. I just want this year to end, but at the same time when it does I have to take charge and care for Maude. Will she be talking to me then?

What will next week bring? More bad I assume. I wish I could do something. But maybe it would be better if I could sleep properly.

I do hope everyone is enjoying their holidays and the events happening with friends. Also that they aren't too intoxicated, but also to have a drink on my behalf. I miss you my puffs!

Muggle Studies was like a war movie in real life. I didn't like it one bit, even if they weren't real land mines. I was a bundle of nerves watching people run through that maze. I didn't like it one bit, I could barely watch it. I was watching it like I watch horror movies at home, between my fingers. I makes me nervous to think what she might do next.

One a happier note, I hope everyone is going to have some fun over Easter Holiday! Bring me back some chocolate, if you can.

I received a letter from my father today. Some of you may know that this is rather rare as he doesn't send much for reasons of Carrows reading the mail. Anyway he was informed by my mother of rumours circulating abroad. It has been said that You Know Who is abroad and gaining support over there. The foreign governments are caving to the pressure and that it wont be long before he has control over France and Germany. Of course this is merely rumour at this point, but still thought it was important for people to hear. I am unsure if we will hear any confirmation until it is probably too late and he has control.

Hogsmeade was definitely not as pleasant as I would like. But I got some more candy, so that was pleasant. Though I kind of wish I had more to eat at dinner cause I am hungry. I don't want to eat all my candy. Upset stomach from candy is never fun. Makes you question the enjoyment of candy and that should never happen. I could also go for some tea. Never thought I would say that after sneaking too much of it in Divinations class this week. I thought I would be done with it for a least a week.

Warded Private

Really trying not to think about Dark Arts class. That was just uncomfortable. I want to say something to Neville, but also don't think it is my place. Definitely not my place. Saying sorry, or asking if he is okay just seems out of place. I dunno, it is all so weird. But watching Dark Arts class was terrifying. I fear being made to do that to anything or anyone. I'm not brave enough to stand up like the others, but I'm just not sure I could go through with that. I had hoped we wouldn't learn that.

To do list for tomorrow: Homework and some sketching.

Writing my "things I hate" essay and it is really just so depressing. At least I am almost done.

Warded to Lavender and Anthony

I do wish to apologize for class today. I do wish to make it clear there are no true intention of wishing to split you guys up. So I am sorry Lilith made me do such as I did in class. Embarrassing really. Sorry to both of you.

I keep getting this pamphlets on healing. Is someone trying to tell me something? I sat on one. Then it was in my shoe. And then I went to the loo and there was one in the sink. I thought for a second I had used one for a bookmark and then I realized I hadn't so it had appeared in my textbook. Is someone trying to tell me something? Should I be going into a Healer profession or something? Or should I be healing something wrong with me?

It is just weird.

Hexed Private

I miss my mum. I don't get the chance to send her mail like I used to do. I don't even know where she is. I guess that is the point though isn't it. No way they could find out where she is. She is gone, safe, away from this crap. I wish Maude had gone with her. I worry about her. I worry she won't make it through this quite the same. I know I wont, but she is so young. Shouldn't she have the youthful carefree life I had? I mean, sure it had it's ups and downs. Death thrown at me before I was ready. But I don't want that for her. She doesn't deserve that. None of us deserve this.

I watch as people fight back, wishing I could do the same. I keep telling myself I am following orders, doing as told for the sake of my sister. Or am I just too spineless? I don't have the courage the Gryffindors do, or even that of Megan, Susan, Hannah. I just sit back. Observing the changes in people, their emotions, I don't want to do it anymore. I wish the year would end. I want to go home. I want things back to normal.

Each day I wonder if my dad will be caught the next time. I almost feel like it will be a matter of time. I know they are looking for my mother, she ran. I am just waiting for the blame to fall on me.

Hexed to Lavender Brown

I don't wish to trouble you, but would be willing to assist me with my hair for the dance? If I am forced to go with a date then I wish to look as best I can for his sake. I know people still call me Spotty, so if I can look pretty then maybe people won't tease him about it. Since it isn't really his choice. So if you would help I would greatly appreciate it.

Hexed to Megan

I need your opinion on something, but before I tell you what about do you promise not to talk about it with anyone?

I hadn't actually planned to attend with anyone. I was only going because I got talked into it. But now it seems all Megan's effort was for naught. I am being forced to go. I don't really want to go. No offence Geoffrey. I just wanted to do the decorations. And he wasn't who I would want to go with anyway.

All I got to say is ouch! Not exactly the plan for dinner. Nor was missing a meal either. I'M STARVING! I will be here for the night guys and gals. (Here being the hospital wing).

I think a dance is just another form of their cruel and unfortunate torture.

But, I am excited to help decorate all the same.

Puppies? Well Cruppies. It had to be them didn't it. I just got a handle on mice. Well barely a handle. I guess I just need to keep plodding on.

Hexed Private

I am scared for Maude. If I can't do this what might happen to her? And I think it about time I finally tell her about dad. Maybe I should talk to someone and get their opinion. Is this something that Maude is supposed to know? I kind of feel like it is better that she doesn't know a thing. I hate these conflicted feelings. I shouldn't have to be keeping something like this from my own sister. This shouldn't be an issue at all. My father shouldn't need to hide muggleborns for their safety? This is utterly depressing. This is just too much knowledge for me to know. I don't want to know it.

Warded to Megan and Susan

I am so sorry. I didn't mean for you to be involved and your name put on the board. I just wanted to ensure you guys knew that. Also not dating Neville

Ward to Hannah

I am not dating Neville.
Are you doing better, you did not seem in the best of spirits yesterday.

Ward to Hufflepuffs

Everyone's things okay?